Happiness - Ambition

Everybody deserves to be happy, and there’s no exception to it. It is what we usually call the human’s rights. Am I happy? Is this what I want? People often ask themselves those questions and yet realized, that they’re not happy enough. Strikethrough. They’re not satisfied enough. People work so hard to pursue their dreams, get a job, getting laid, this, that, these, those, all sort of things.

I am pretty sure as whoever read this must’ve been told that one of human’s basic natures is that human is never satisfied. When they reach level 10, they wanna reach level 15. When they reach level 15, they go for 20. So and so forth. It is good at work to be so, gives some competitive environment, but at some level, it is also a stupid act leading to various miseries.

Ambition is what makes a human human. They have ambition, to pursue their happiness, or satisfaction? Such thin line that differentiates them, causes us to go for what we don’t really want. I have ambition myself: When I graduate I want to have a steady job, nice income, and I want to have a place of my own. This is my dream, when I reach it, I’ll be happy. But when I do get steady work, let’s say I become an animator at Disney’s Pixar studio (dreaming is allowed!), there must be people who fight for themselves for the very same reason as I would do: position. This is no happiness we’re pursuing, but rather ambition.
I really pray for God not to let me be in that kind of situation. I know I might’ve been a wee bit too religious lately (which might let people hate me) but I don’t really have a friend to talk to (I know so sad). My buddy left me without reasons; my BFF is so very busy pursuing her own dreams. I, on the other hand might seem a little bit absent about pursuing this and that, but that doesn’t mean that I don’t have my ambition. It’s just after so long I ‘m looking for it, I always end up in a very very bad situation which I honestly say, I’m still trapped into.

So there’s my whining, and please don’t send any sympathetic comments.

Avatar

As so many people have been waiting and dying to watch this so-called James Cameron's highest budget movie, I finally went to the cinema and watch this blue avatar creature that I previously mocked as a disgusting-ugly creatures. And you know what? I was stunned. The animation was just too beautiful and it fit perfectly with the real environment. Even though I found some errors in the animation, but it was barely noticable. =)

The story itself is about an ex-marine named Jake Sully (Sam Worthington) whose gone limp from waist below who were willing to join in avatar program which was designed to learn the way of Na'vi creature (original creature who lived in the planet named Pandora) live. Humans are interested to mine a rare mineral called unobtanium which sells 20 million dollars per kilo. Jake was sent to do research and "undercover" as Na'vi people and soon fell in love to live as an avatar. He then later betrayed his own kind to help Na'vi people defend their homeland.

I won't talk much about the story because it is better watch than told, and also this movie is kinda long, about 3 hours but not boring at all. Even an action-genre hater like me enjoyed the battle. =)

The movie is very much epic, and moving. I give it 9 of 10 stars.

P.S. The deity Na'vi people have is called Eywa, but somehow when pronounced continuosly, it is heard as "Elohim", which means God.

Holiday Season

Okay finally it's time to catch a breath and relieve some stress for my university life, cuz it's a holiday time! Yaay! Even though this holiday period between semesters is quite brief (only like, 12 days including Saturday and Sunday), but I think it's enough to relieve anything that needs relieving. I personally kinda eager to start a new semester, with some many new subjects such as pPhotography, Typography, Visual Communication Design, and old ones such as English, Drawing and Graphic Computer. One thing I hate is just this theory subject called Indonesian's Culture and Art History. I have always been had a hard time every time I try to like something that is related to Indonesia. I know the panoramas are good, the cultures are rich and so and so forth but it's just not ME. I disgusts (okay, a bit too rough of a word but oh well) Indonesian, but for its people, for connection and friend I have never been picky. =)

Now the plan for surviving this holiday. I plan to sleep not more than 11 every night, because ever since I got into this whole design thing, I realized that my life cycle hasn't been normal. I sleep everyday at 2, I woke up at 10 and I spend the rest of the day in front of computer. Sure I have job, but it's not like I'll be doing it every day, I only got 3 days job, and it's only about 2~3 hours per day. Okay then let's stick to the plan, after sleeping ALWAYS before 11 I also want to wake up at about 8 or 9, then do some exercises in the morning, and then working on my skill, to trace, to draw, anything that could possibly get me money. I already accepted 2 offers to design, one is a banner and one is a book cover. It's nice to help someone sometimes and now that I'm still new, I'd like to build a connection first, and then I put the price tag on.

Speaking of the new semester, my class has been shuffled. I am not shuffled, and by that I mean I'm staying together with my friends. They all got the same class as I got except 1 or 2, which they want to call their parents and have them come to the academic centre to transfer their children to other class. It's pointless. I know the advantage of this whole class shuffling is more chance to meet more friends, and by that we can open our eyes even wider to see which one is better, which one is kinda lousy, which one we actually fit right in and potentially become partner, but don't you think it's too much of a work? We have to adapt again and again and again, which is not always very easy for everyone. Some took days, some took weeks, some took months, and some even still don't have any after a semester. Just two days ago when I heard a friend of mine has a very weird and spooky kinda classmate, a girl. And from hearing that story I was a bit disgusted, but also sympathetic. I mean, I know she behaves strangely, oddly or even bizarrely, and her so-called-friends are all fake and only wanted to make fun of her, this is very very sad. But when I came across of her personally (like, right after my friend told me the story) I can't imagine why she would have a real friend. And just yesterday when I was opening my facebook account, I found a message in my inbox from her, saying that she already added me and wants me to approve. Geez, I really don't know what to say. I'm not a girl-hater, but when it comes to a freak, or a dumbo, or a loon, I wouldn't tolerate and be sympathetic. I did this in my past and it ended so badly I don’t even wanna remember. But then again, I don't wanna look so mean or evil but I also don't want her to think that I'm giving her a chance (to become friend, of course) because it just won't happen no matter what except if one day I woke up and went autistic all the way to the zero IQ.

Enough with this girl crap. Now after all those things I have said I really don't feel like continuing this writing. As for sure, I'm gonna be writing a lot more at this holiday, along with designing God-knows-what that I might share here on my blog. =)

Ciao!